I got a runner's high today, so now I kind of get it. . . there's so much going on in my brain that I needed to get next to water and breathe in semi-fresh air and be amongst the elements. I pounded the pavement and felt the pain and felt better. It's important to do this. Critical, as a matter of fact.
And I've been striving to feel better for some time now. My approach has changed. A lot of it is due to my forever and always partner in crime, Miss Angela. You see, I'm nice. I've always been nice and truly I always will be. But there are situations in life where I have to stick up for myself and I often don't do a good job. Sometimes that's inconsequential, but with what I'm faced with right now I can't afford to roll over and take it. Oy.
I'm going to ask for what I need and tell it like it is. I am going to avoid getting angry by coaching and making sure I'm not only heard, but listened to. At the end of the day, everyone around me just wants my best. Little do some know that, to get my best, I require a little food and water. A specific kind. Good news is, I'm not afraid to share with anyone what that is.
And that's what changes tomorrow. Was the weekend still polluted with worrying and anxiety? Shit yeah. But that's my M.O. more often than not. What's different is I get to begin reaping the benefits of being assertive. Calm and assertive.
I'll keep you posted.
2 comments:
Oh girl, I know exactly how you're feeling. I have been dealing with the same thing at my office for the past few years and things have changed with my attitude. I guess sometimes we have to demand respect, and shout it from the rooftops in case the person we are communicating with is wearing ear plugs. It's not easy to be this way, especially when it's not really in our nature. Just keep speaking up for yourself, the dust will start to settle soon.
Friend...I miss you so and am VERY eager to hear all that has been going on over there...at work and other. I am hoping this post proved to be successful for you.
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